This slave is trying hard enough to keep Master ?
2001-05-12 // 10:37 p.m.
Today has been hard, this slave's Master has been asking slave what this slave wants to do. This slave thought that was all part of surrendering control to the Master, that as his slave, this slave would not have the right to do as she wished. This slave is meant to be micromanaged when slave's child is at school, which again means slave should be asking Master if slave can do something.
Today slave just seem to be doing the wrong things. This slave does not know if Master will stay. Master says it is to warm for him here & is thinking about going over to Master's other place. This slave is trying to keep this place cool. What can slave do? What dose Master want? What should slave have done? Where does this slave go from here? If Master was not a Master or my Master what would happen?
Help! this slave feels lost. This slave does not know where to turn. This slave does not Want to lose Master. This slave was learning so much from Master.
Master this slave knows she did wrong today & this slave knows Master needs to punish slave for it, Master just please don't leave slave not knowing what it is or when it is. With everthing else its making this slave feel on edge.
"He is Master, i am slave
He is owner and i am owned
He commands and i obey
He is to be pleased and i am to please
why is this?
Because He is Master and i am slave"