To marry or not?
2001-05-04 // 10:43 p.m.
If this slave fails in any one way as a slave it is because this slave does not agree with what slave's Master feels about marriage.
The subject of marriage came up today only because Master asked what someone had said to this slave & slave told Master what was said as a slave should when Her Master asks. This slave had been asked if Master & slave where married & slave had said that Master & slave weren't.
Now this is when things started to go down hill, slave's Master knows that slave feels that mariage can be another level of commitment you can make to someone. Even though mariage has gone wrong for slave in the past. This slave was nealy killed by her Husband , slave would do it again.
This slave's Master said marriage is a burden, which cut at slave like a knife. It made slave feel as though she must be a burden. Because as Master's slave all that she is, is open to Master. This slave can hide nothing from Master, nor does she want to. This slave is open & exposed like Master says a good slave should be. This slave is Master's In, heart, mind, body, soul & spirit, Master's to do as Master will. This slave lays herself out for all to see in these logs & many other ways at Master's request. This slave is open & bare now, that is as it should be. This slave feels she is a true slave but only her Master can say that for sure.
In a later discussion slave's Master admitted that "Burden" was not the appropriate word when Master discussed marriage. But slave still feels that Master didnt explain Master's views fully on what Master really meant and what word Master should have used.
"He is Master, i am slave
He is owner and i am owned
He commands and i obey
He is to be pleased and i am to please
why is this?
Because He is Master and i am slave"