Lost log of all mixed up feelings.
2001-05-03 // 9:39 p.m.
This slave had done a log for today about slave's feeling, which has now been lost. This slave now finds slave can't redo it. This slave poured so much of herself into it,that now its gone. Now this slave feels betrayed & slave shouldn't.
This slave had left her log for slave's Master to read before putting it on the net as Master & slave had done before, after Master read it Master pressed the update button & so belived it had gone up onto the web log page.
Master loged his slave out thinking all was fine & went on todo some work Master had to do on his account. It was only when Master & slave went to try to see the log that Master & slave found it was not there, where it has gone Master & slave do not know & can not trace it.
This slave now can't help feeling that part of this slave is missing, slave now feels raw, hurt, lost, vulnerble & betrayed. None of this is Master's fault, slave could have left it for Master to see it when it was up on the net.
This slave had wrote about slave's feelings being all mixed up, now its worse. This slave hopes slave will be able to write it again, not only for slave's sake, but Masters. Because it ment just as much to Master as it did to slave.
"He is Master, i am slave
He is owner and i am owned
He commands and i obey
He is to be pleased and i am to please
why is this?
Because He is Master and i am slave"