A day that was full of conflicting emotions.
2001-10-24 // 10:14 p.m.
This day has been a hard day & a joyous day, full of so many emotions.
This slave is afraid & yet calm, down & yet full of joy, confused & yet clear. This slave has these things going on all at once. Afraid because of the health problem she has & calm because of the support she has from Master & her sister friends. Down because of how long things take to happen & joy Because of the words that are spoken by Master, jax, pet, theese, ruthie & tizzy. Confused when this slave is going though an attack & clear in the knowledge that Master & so many others are looking out for her. Oh & with all this comes Love, the love that this slave feels for Master & Master for her, & this slave feels the love from her sister friends at this time.
As you may have seen on the previous log this slave was going back to the doctor's with Master. Not a lot came out of this that this slave did not already know. Well maybe the doctor did, because this slave was in the middle of one of her attacks, & this is the second doctor that has seen her this way, all be it a milder one this time. This slave still has to wait to hear from the hospital as to when she can be seen there. Oh this waiting, it is not right to keep someone waiting like this, especially when what they are going through makes them so afraid.
This slave has been told that she may have to be rushed in to hospital if she has another bad attack, or when she goes to the hospital she may be kept in & should make arrangements for her daughter. Does this mean the doctor knows something, which she is not telling this slave?
This slave does not want to think about that any more, she would much rather think about what she can still do for Master, this makes her feel so happy & so wet.:)
This slave is pleased to see that jax has started to see that even when a slave is sick she can still serve & please a Master, not by what a slave can't do, but by what she can do. Keep it up sis you are getting there & you will soon have your goal.
"He is Master, i am slave
He is owner and i am owned
He commands and i obey
He is to be pleased and i am to please
why is this?
Because He is Master and i am slave"