Whats happened ?
2001-08-17 // 9:48 p.m.
This slave feels lost & Master is getting wound up, is it because of this slave or is it probationer slave.
probationer slave was meant to be out of exile on Thursday, but probationer slave has not done probationer slave's web logs, or the emails for Master. This slave now has to wait untill this has been done before this slave can talk to probationer slave. Does this mean that probationer slave does not wish to join the family ? Does probationer slave just not wish to be a slave for this slave's Master, or is it that probationer slave does not wish to be a slave at all ? It may be that probationer slave is just not well, if so why didn't probationer slave say so when probationer slave texted Master. All this waitting is not helping Master's mood.
It also could be that this slave is the cause of Master's mood. Master seems to be under the impression that this slave is allowed to make rules to do with Master & child. This slave would not dare to make any rules, that is for master to do. It may be that Master is on about the fact that Master is not childs father, but child treats Master as if Master where childs father and as such common decency rules. This slave has attempted to ensure, successfully untill now, that Master should not see child in a state of undress nor should child see Master in the same state of undress.
This slave tries to warn Master when this may happen but is not always able to do this, like this morning when child could not find childs hair brush & asked mum (this slave).This slave told her (raising this slave's voice as so Master could hear just in case child left the room) that she was the only one & the last one to use that brush, so she was the only one to know where it was. This slave's child left the room to look for her brush, not giving this slave enough time for this slave to warn Master if Master was in a state of undress as indeed it later transpired he was. Master had tried to close the bedroom door,but in doing so hurt Master's foot.
Master believed that child had seen Master in this state, but child said she did not. This slave did all this slave could do to stop this happening be this was not enough.
This slave has read Master's log & had believed this slave had done the punishment for the talking in the first person, but if this slave has not then this slave has something comforting to look forward to.
"He is Master, i am slave
He is owner and i am owned
He commands and i obey
He is to be pleased and i am to please
why is this?
Because He is Master and i am slave"